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I love our plants….we have been waiting for quite some time for the amyrills to open up. Ain’t it a beauty!
Puts a smile on my face, what about yours?

Jan 13


Puppies always makes me smile. Little moments during my day are brighter because Milo always loves me. I can leave the house for 5 minutes or 10 days and she is always just as happy when I walk in the door.

Jan 12


I love to walk in the house and smell the warm sweet fragrance of a candle.
This little candle and scented wax warmer was welcoming me home tonight. It definitely brought a smile to my face.



My blanket that I made makes me smile. Especially when I am under it with the man I love

Jan 10


Todays pic that makes me smile….dinner!
I am so glad to know that my man can (and will) cook a sweet dinner when I have to work late!
Tonights menu….roast, taters, dinner salad ect!

Jan 9


The first day of a pic a day that makes me happy…..
My man, he is makes everything better in my life. We are a great team.

Just a little wiggle room.


The family wheeled Grandma out on the lawn, in her wheelchair, where the
activities for her 100th birthday were taking place. Grandma couldn’t
speak very well, but she would write notes when she needed to

After a short time out on the lawn, Grandma started leaning off to the
right, so some family members grabbed her, straightened her up, and
stuffed pillows on her right.

A short time later, she started leaning off to her left, so again the
family grabbed her and stuffed pillows on her left.

Soon she started leaning forward, so the family members again grabbed
her, and then tied a pillowcase around her waist to hold her up.

A nephew who arrived late came up to Grandma and said, ‘Hi, Grandma,
you’re looking good! How are they treating you?’

Grandma took out her little notepad and slowly wrote a note to the

‘Bastards won’t let me fart.’

Dear Razor….


Dear razor,

I hate you! You are a time consuming and painful little nuisance in my life. What is it that I have done to you that you treat me in such a way? The nicks and razor burn, the dull blades and expensive refills and all the creams and lotions and exfoliating accessories.

I don’t understand how it can all add up so fast. If only I had the money to sit in a salon and pay some nice young lady to personally pluck, laser or wax away all my body hair…you would be so gone! And tell me, why is it that you don’t come with some kind of little robot that could have a steady hand and wouldn’t nick me, or definitely wouldn’t let me leave on a hot date or a trip to the OB-GYN office with that one hair that I missed that seems to be growing at an alarming rate once I notice it?

Be grateful that I am broke and that I don‘t want to look (completely) like a hairy hippy. Even when I do spend the time with you, one body part to the next, by the time I get it all done I need to start over again. Sometimes I think I could walk to Brazil faster than I can try and shave that specific area with no help.

Be grateful of your place in my life, because someday…oh, let me tell you, your history!

Sincerely yours


2010 in review

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.

Crunchy numbers

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A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 4,700 times in 2010. That’s about 11 full 747s.

In 2010, there were 42 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 511 posts. There were 13 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 19mb. That’s about a picture per month.

The busiest day of the year was January 6th with 181 views. The most popular post that day was Some like it hot! .

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were hateandanger.wordpress.com, purefnevyl.wordpress.com, Google Reader, facebook.com, and badsneaker.net.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for eric dane, crazy would you rather questions, keanu reeves, heart on sleeve, and resimay.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.


Some like it hot! August 2007
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25 crazy questions March 2008


Happy 4th of July! July 2009


What made me who I am today… October 2007


My heart on my sleeve July 2010

A new me? lets just wait and see…

Every year I set myself up for the traditional downfall of resolutions. Why…why do we do this to ourselves? Exercise, diet, quit smoking, spend more time with family, get a better job, whatever it is in your life.

Last year I wanted to loose some weight, adopt or have a baby with my husband, and just flat out be a better person. Oh laugh…it’s ok, I know I screwed that all up. I quit running and dieting (although I did lose some weight, stress will do that!) I not only didn’t add a member to my little family, I decreased the number in half by divorcing the bugger, and did it all by having an affair (look at me Jesus, I am quite a person!) But believe it if you will I actually accomplished a goal that I didn’t even set. I for the first time in a very long time, I made myself happy.

I spent my new years eve at my folks house, and long after they went to bed, I rang in the new year (via skype) with the man dearest to my heart. Baby, I can’t imagine anyone else I would want to remember was the last person I spoke to in 2010 and the first I smiled with in 2011.

I have refused to set any resolutions this year. What is to happen will happen. I just hope that along the way I will get to experience the joys of life. I want to continue to grow (knowledge rather than weight if that is an option). I want to see people around me smile, and I want to laugh and cry and just be human. I still have my goals and aspirations, I just don’t want to set a time limit and feel the regret of losing, and thinking that I will have to wait till next year to be that better person.

I hope that whatever it is that you long for in 2011 will be obtainable. Happy New Year!

How do they know?

I am always amazed at the intuitive nature of children. They always know just when you can’t take another thing in your life somehow. Offering just a little smile or a out of tune song or a hug tight as can be right around your neck.

I had one of those days today…you know the ones that when you look back you know that things could have always been much worse but at the moment you seem to worry too much about the little things and forget about all the small miracles and wonders of everyday life that we should really be more grateful for.

It took the warm heart of my 3 year old nephew to make me open my eyes and remember that I am loved and very blessed. I returned to my bedroom tonight to find this…my normal teddy that resides on my bed, and his favorite toy “Giraff-ie”. When I took his toy out to his dads apartment where he is sleeping for the night I asked him why he left it in my room. He just smiled that sweet innocent smile and responded, “they are best friends and Giraff-ie didn’t want Teddy to be lonely like you without {your boyfriend}. I think you should sleep with him tonight.” I was amazed that he picked up on how much I miss my man. As I left the apartment I felt a little tear down my cheek, my nephew has clung to that little giraffe since his parents split up. I know it was quite a sacrifice to let me sleep with his toy…while I would normally have told him not to worry about it and to keep the stuffed animal for himself I thought that would ruin the whole point of his selfish less sacrifice. I will be proud to admit that I will be sleeping with Teddy and Giraff-ie tonight.

The Love Meme

My heart has been found by the most wonderful of men, if you haven’t noticed as of late. So I went looking for something to write about and my mind keeps drifting back to him. I didn’t think that you all wanted to hear about me and my lover so I stole this “ 3 Things You Love” meme over at this cute little site. I just LOVE the idea of it! I want you all to give it a whirl and let me know so I can drop by and visit you.


1- 3 Things You Love in your Boyfriend/ Girlfriend or Husband/ Wife

His amazing eyes- they can be as cold and grey as steel one moment and then the next blue as the sky

His hands – They have a certain mystery to me still, how they can work all day and yet feel like silk against my naked body will never cease to amaze me.

His faith – I have never met another human being that faced with so much challenge and adversity can still see the glass as half full. His faith in me is amazing, and it is contagious, even I have begun to believe in myself.

2- 3 Things You Love in a Friend

Sincerity – don’t fill me with all that fluff and junk. If you mean it, say it.

Honesty – don’t lie to me.

Enduring – staying power is a must. I love the kind of friend that you don’t have to talk to everyday to know that if you ever need them they will be there.

3- 3 Things You Love in a Book

Romance – well duh! That one is self explanatory

Twist – a good sci-fi that throws in a little mystery or magic

Imagination – I like to leave a little to my minds eye…not every detail needs to be spelled out so much that you can’t dream a little about it all.

4- 3 Things You Love in a Movie

Hot Actors- lol…you know its true. I will watch a movie that has got horrible reviews because it has a hotty in it.

Story line- if it don’t keep me awake, I won’t keep watching it. I am so sick of remakes too, come on Hollywood there are some great stories out there.

Loveable Characters – How can you not love some charecters, I want to invite some of them over for dinner after the show. For instance take Harry Potter…that kid is loveable.

5- 3 Things You Love in a Blog

I have to cheat a little here. I read my friends blogs…so I guess the same things I look for in a friend.

Creativity – I like to see things that folks make

Humor – Make me laugh and I will blogroll ya baby!

6- 3 Things You Love to Talk About

My hotty boyfriend



7- 3 Things You Love to do in Vacations



See the sights

8- 3 Things You Love to Eat

Pasta – just about any kind as long as you don’t sneak in any seafood.

Hamburgers – I am all about a big juicy burger…add me an onion and some bleu cheese and I am in heaven

Potatoes – Just about any kind. With the exception of potato chips…yuck.

9- 3 Things You’d Love to Happen in Your Life

Marry the man of my dreams (and yes this means you my sweet!)

Write a book…and pray that someone enjoys it.

Enjoy the small things in my life everyday with my loved ones.

Can I offer my advice?

I once brought home the cutest little baby raccoons that had been orphaned. I only got to keep them for a few hours until multi people convinced me that it was dangerous to keep them and that they would end up being more trouble than what they were worth.

Wrangler & Rocky

I look back from time to time and wonder if I missed out on an experience because I listened to everyone’s free advice on the matter. Who’s to say…

I could have had the most loving pets in the world from them, or I could have been seriously injured.

Truth of the matter is, when I picked them up from the man that had trapped them on his farm, I was excited at the newness of them in my life. They seemed to me to be soft and cuddly and their big black eyes seemed to beg of me to take them home and love them, the curiosity seemed to go both ways thru the cage. As I drove home I made a few stops along the way and told friends and family of my new little friends, a friend pointed out a little chatter noise that started to bother me, someone pointed out to me they had sharp little claws, another mentioned their teeth, and another told me of their habits of trouble and mischief. By the time I got them home I had a fear of them that I had not initially seen.

I often wonder at that fear…was it justified? Was it fair of my family and friends to put their advice on my situation? Had any of them ever actually been in this exact situation? Was what they said all a bunch of hear say?

How is someone to grow and learn and feel things for themselves if everything is taken for granted and never actually experienced? Without a doubt I know the information given to me is always given with the intention of saving me from heartaches and troubles. But when do you step out and see the world for yourself?

I want to pick up that little orphaned raccoon and take a chance…hope for the best and pray along the way. I guess if I get bit I will learn…and honestly I may forget the feeling over time, I am not saying that I am not a slow learner. I just hope that the people that offer advice in the beginning will still love me and they can laugh with me in the end if they were right and it ends up a mess…but I also hope that If that little raccoon turns out to be so much more, that my loved ones will understand why I had to take a chance.

the meme is back – Twenty questions I almost didn’t answer

I did it…I am a theif. Quick as thunder I snuck over here and grabbed up this though provoking meme.

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I would have said hunt the bitch down and rip out her heart…but truth is I would first ask my lover if she made him happy first. If he didn’t want to be with me any longer and she makes him happy then it would be a different story.

2. If you have a dream you’d like to come true, what is it?

I want to live happily ever after with my lover…all the rest of my dreams seem to fit into that fairy tail that all starts with him.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

My brother and his smutty girlfriend.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

Travel…I would like to live comfortably but be able to treat my friends and family also.

5. Will your best friend always be your best friend?

No…I am way to fickle. I don’t make or keep friends easily. I guess its just because I want them to give to the friendship what I feel like I bring. And when I decide our friendship is over, it is usually a done deal. I don’t re-give my trust and I don’t like to feel used.

6. Have you ever been in love with two people at once?

Yes…I still have a special place in my heart for some of the men from my past. I think of it as the same kind of love I have for my family. But my heart truly only ever belongs to one.

7. How long would you wait for someone you really loved?

Ironic question for me right now. I have been waiting for my true love all my life, I just didn’t know I was waiting for him. I met him for the first time face to face in September…as it sits right now, we can’t possibly be together till next summer. I guess the answer is I would wait forever.

8. If you won the lottery, would you quit your job?

My current job, yes, in a heartbeat. But I would like to work at my photography and writing till the day I die. I love it and I believe it would keep my brain young and active.

9. Who is on your celebrity top 5…you know, the ones…that if you ever had an opportunity…

Hugh Jackman, Derek Jeter, Karl Urban, Ryan Renyolds, and just for flavor Elizabeth Hurley.

10. What sucks the life out of you?

Liars, and lazy people.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?

Happily married with a couple of little ones. Me writing and my dear husband and I enjoying each other and traveling America.

12. What’s your greatest fear/phobia?

Disappointing the people that have faith in my abilities.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

I stole this…so the sky is the limit. But I love Dead Charming.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Married and poor. As long as we truly love each other, I think we can make it work.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Each morning I wake to a phone call from my lover…I talk to him and when I am done I rush to the bathroom. I always have to pee in the morning.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

I try…and I hope that people know that.

17. Is your career vitally important to you?

Financially its important. But I am not tied to this job. I enjoy it and have made many friends and learned so many things, but it’s a job, not a career.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

If I felt that they were being honest and sincere with an apology, I think I would.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

I like to have someone to lean on and knowing that I am there for someone in return.

20. List 6 people to tag

I hate to do this…so I won’t. But if you want to give it a try let me know so I can check out your answers.

Hey all…

I promise…I have not fallen into a ditch and died somewhere. If I had I would be busy haunting all your crazy butts. Ok not really, I would busy haunting all the men that did me wrong.

I am working on somethings and hope to be back around posting soon, i miss you all! Oh hey do me a favor and leave me a message…I need to update my blogroll and get around and see ya’all!

Snap and Go…and keep going

Day 1

All I have to say about thus far in my little adventure…don’t trust me with a map. Cause if I am busy taking in all the beautiful scenery around me, I forget to watch where I am going and I will end up in another State. Hence my drive to see Deadwood, I ended up in Wyoming! The structures in Deadwood were amazing. I was a little surprised by the lack of insistence on the city to allow sucky mundane new buildings to sit side by side to the restored ones.

My heart on my sleeve

This is a special post for a very special person….and that person is very aware of who he is. My heart is past the point of returning to a place of ever being able to forget you. The way you have touched my very soul, you seem to have burned your impression on me. I am yours…forever and completely.

I pray to any God that will listen that you will wrap me in your arms each and every night for the rest of my life, holding me as close to your body as we can be. Feeling the warmth of your breath on my naked body, and listening to your heartbeat like it’s the only sound on Earth. Looking in your eyes and seeing the energy that lights your life is me, and letting you see in my eyes the same of you.

Kissing you first thing every morning and the last thing every night, and the many kisses all of the hours in between. I want to taste the sweet, pure honest love that we share for one another on your lips, and feel you caress my body like I am the most beautiful woman you have ever known.

I want to see your chest swell with pride each time you introduce me to someone, knowing that you really are proud to call me you own. And I want to enjoy the looks of jealousy I will receive from the many women that missed their chance at the most wonderful man alive.  

I want to make you smile each and every day.  I want to dance in the rain with you, cry in your arms when the world is too much, and watch the sunrise wrapped in only your love and a blanket. I want to count the stars till we fall asleep on the lawn, sit by the fire on a stormy winter day. I want to listen to the frogs, and to see the baby farm animals together. I want to kiss the tip of your nose or your forehead when you’re ill.  I want to comfort your after a hard day. I want to listen to the birds together and have you show me the ones you know and love. I want to work in the yard and garden with you and get dirty and sweaty and then sneak in and have a cool shower together. I want to feel you come up behind me while I am busy and brush my hair from the back of my neck and have you kiss it tenderly, turning my body slowly to yours and know that this is only the beginning. I want to watch you sleep and most of all to be amazed every day at you!

I want to see the look in your eyes when I tell you that I am pregnant with our child. I want you to hold my pregnant stomach and enjoy the pleasure of feeling the baby kick and move within me. I want my body to make you swell with love.

I want to share my whole world with you for the rest of this life and any life beyond. Every emotion, every frustration or doubt, every joy and fervor, I want the first time our eyes meet to be just as  passionate as they will be in a hundred years. I want to feel that fixation of love we share till the stars all fall from the sky. But most of all I want you to know…I love you. I can’t stop and won’t ever stop being madly in love with you.

Seeing past the looking glass

As I drift into a peaceful slumber a fair amount of things pass randomly in and around my head. I think of family and friends, loved ones far away, work and my career path, and about what my life would be like if I had only chosen a different path.

I know the sequence of events that make up my life rely on the world around us, but ultimately, with each problem, we are given a choice. The person looking back at me in the mirror is the person I have made myself.  Only I hold the power to change me. Only I have the power to get up each morning and say this is who I want to be, or what I want to become. And with that power we have the decision of how we want to stay on the current path or to find another way thru life.

Seeing past the ‘who’ we are right now can be hard. We can spend a whole life time wallowing in the decisions of the past whether they be good or bad.  

I have a very dear friend that is starting to show signs of Alzheimer’s disease. She has lived her life to the fullest every day for the past 80 years. She still works every single day to try and continue to keep her mind clear and sharp. But the world moves too fast sometimes and she gets confused. It breaks my heart to see her get frustrated with ‘who’ she is right now. She wants to be the woman she was before, and she is missing the moments that are current because she worries too much about what she could do before. Her oldest grandson recently had a baby of his own and she won’t spend time with them because she is embarrassed about her ability to remember current things. That small child will never hold a grudge if she forgets his name a time or two. But that baby will never get to know the love of a woman that gives her all everyday unless she can see past the woman in the mirror.

I will be honest; I have had a hard time seeing past the looking glass. I have hidden my goals and dreams away before thinking that I don’t have the power (or sometimes the money) to see anything else. But that is not the way to live…you are the one that writes your own story! If you want the fairytale, go out and get it! Live today the life you want to see for yourself in the future.

“Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. And today? Today is a gift. That’s why we call it the present.” ~Babatunde Olatunji

Lost travelers…

Sometimes heaven throws lost travelers a road map, we just have to find the courage to open it, and have faith in the twisted path that leads us to our goals.

Just breath

Do you remember the first time you tried something…somthing that changed your world ever so slightly in the moment but eventually became something so much more.

Like the first time you bite into a fresh tomato you have grown from the vine, the taste can be familiar to other produce you have had before, but it’s intensely different. Life altering? Probably not, but definitely something you will never forget. The way the skin is warm from the summer sun, the flavor of the juice that you somehow in the moment don’t mind dripping down your chin, and the immense amount of pride in yourself at the bounty of your labor.

Its moments like this in our life that we need to step back and enjoy more often. Life moves way to fast…sit down and enjoy…and just breath!

Oh and btw of Tomato eating…I found this little tid bit.
Surprisingly Sexy Ingredient: Tomatoes
Many food experts prefer to call the tomato, the “apple of love.” Why is the tomato erotic? Two reasons: First of all, the sensation of eating a fresh, fully ripened, crisp, clean, juicy tomato is sexy all on its own. Watching a pair of sexy lips nibble on this fruit (or vegetable, depending on which school you belong to), is enough to make you hungry for other things. Of course, the juicier the tomato, the more chance you’ll have of dribbling on yourself or your partner.but isn’t that what tongues are for? Added bonus: Eating tomatoes is known to aid in sexual performance. They help calm pre-sex nerves, which can be especially helpful in a first-time-partner situation. Furthermore, the tomato is also known for improving muscle control, which can aid in a number of other between-the-sheets efforts, too.

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When sign makers go on strike, is anything written on their signs?


The purpose toward which an endeavor is directed; an objective. Such is the definition. But what really is a goal…and why do we need them?

Why do we set such things in our life? Is this just motivation to fail? I don’t think so.

I read someplace that a goal must be specific.  If the goal is not specific enough it will lack clarity and meaning and also a goal must be measurable and have a well-defined outcome. 

I think we need to establish goals in our life…big or small. If we don’t know where we are going how will we ever get there?

Sometimes the goals we set are minor…some goals are just mile high dreams that we may never achieve. But I say keep reaching for the stars…what is it they say “Ah, but a man’s reach should exceed his grasp — or what’s a heaven for?”

I believe I will continue to set goals in my life…I have a few I am working on, big and small, and I hope someday to share with you all my accomplishments.


I just want to ask…do you know of anyone that has fell in love over the internet? Can it really happen…and how do they make it work?

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How do you handcuff a one-armed man?


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